embraced by softness

today I didn’t know if I want to be on the mat

in the last days, weeks, I haven’t been… (since 3.09).

I came anyway… as I did some other times, trusting the “I don’t know” and being with the … let’s see what’s coming… unfolding, being informed…

there was a softness, embracing me the whole practice… soft, grater then me…

I was offered a big embrace of softness…

I was RECEIVING this softness…

even if my upper back, shoulders and neck was stiff (at least in the first half of the practice)…

even when I am mechanistic in the asana…

this softness was with me all along today on the mat…

supporting me…

I was offered a surprisingly spacious breath

I feel my core regaining a soft vitality

not hurting anymore

for the first time since Pearl left again, I felt the warmth of my womb

I can receive,

I am embraced… by something greater then me

 

tat tvam asi