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am primit textul de mai jos de la zana noastra Nora. l-am cautat pe net, nu am gasit, sursa, autorul, dar vreau sa il postez aici… sa ramana…
“Daca un tren nu s-a oprit in statia ta, inseamna ca acel tren nu este pentru tine. Un alt tren incearca sa ajunga la tine, dar nu poate face acest lucru, atata timp cat un tren nepotrivit este inca retinut de intensitatea dorintei tale.”
Marianne Williamson
Cat de usoara si frumoasa ar deveni viata noastra, daca am invata sa lasam sa plece ceea ce este de plecat si sa lasam sa vina ceea ce este de venit, fara a ramane atasati de ceea ce pleaca sau de ceea ce vine.
Exista o usurinta a trarii si o bucurie a inimii cand acceptam cursul vietii exact asa cum este. Invatam, in acest cadru, recunostinta profunda pentru tot si toate si descoperim in fiecare moment si in fiecare experienta, indiferent de natura sa, o ocazie sacra de a privi in interiorul nostru si de a ramane senini si linistiti, privind dincolo de aparentele lumii exterioare.Libertatea pe care o regasim atunci in interior si seninatatea care se aseaza in inimile noastre, sunt dovezi ale unei maturitati spirituale si a unui intelegeri mai profunde a vietii.
Cand acceptam ceea ce este:
1. ne pastram* capacitatea* de a ne bucura de fiecare moment al vietii, fara a ramane* atasati* de credinta despre cum ar trebui un lucru sa fie. Atasamentul fata de proiectiile pe care le avem in legatura cu o anumita experienta ne fura bucuria de a trai si ne inchide inima, fiind tot timpul dezamagiti si niciodata multumiti. Adevarata bucurie se naste spontan atunci cand ramanem deschisi si flexibili in fata vietii.
2. ramanem* linistiti* si calmi*, chiar si atunci cand traversam momente dificile*, stiind* ca fiecare lucru are rostul lui si ca linistea din inima noastra va fi singura care va reaseza linistea si in afara noastra. Ingrijorarea creaza si mai multa ingrijorare. Agitatia produce si mai multa agitatie. Nemultumitului i se ia darul. Judecatii i se va raspunde cu aceeasi moneda. Pacea, in schimb, va produce pace. Rabdarea va fi rasplatita. Iubirea va vindeca inimi si va intoarce la ea si mai multa iubire.Iti propun ca moment de reflectie pentru astazi, sa privesti* la viata ta si sa vezi care sunt lucrurile, experientele, oamenii in legatura cu care inca ai atasamente care nu fac decat sa te raneasca. Priveste* cu sinceritate la aceste atasamente si propune-ti sa renunti* la ele. Sa fii recunoscator/oare pentru ceea ce a fost, este si va fi, dar fara a te angrena* in imagini sau dezamagiri cu privire la cum ar fi trebuit sa fie sau la cum consideri ca trebuie sa fie pe mai departe.
Bucura-te* de ceea ce a fost si pastreaza-ti* inima deschisa pentru ceea ce urmeaza sa vina. Nu pune* insa vietii conditii, ci permite-i* sa te surprinda. Ai incredere* ca atunci cand inima iti este usoara, tot ceea ce vine catre tine, vine sa-ti serveasca unui bine mai mare.
Elibereaza-ti* sufletul de dependente si atasamente.
Ia-ti libertatea inapoi si ofera-le tuturor libertatea inapoi.
Elibereaza* prezentul si viitorul, eliberand trecutul.
Recunostinta pentru ce a fost. Recunostinta pentru ce este.
Recunostinta pentru ce va fi.
Nu lasa mesajul de astazi sa fie doar un mesaj in plus, ci ofera-ti* un
pic de timp de reflectie si eliberare.
Inchide ochii. Respira* profund. Fa liniste* si ramai* acolo.
Impaca-te* cu toate si cu toti.
Trimite* iubirea ta tuturor.
Elibereaza-te* de tot ceea ce nu te mai serveste.Pentru pacea si bucuria inimii tale, e momentul sa faci asta acum.
am multe sa scriu si si mai multe de facut 😀 despre subiectele de mai sus… mai ales despre cum abordez eu acele lucruri. a fi recunoscator e simplu, imediat si la indemana oricum. despre restul, poate vine si acel moment cand voi scrie…
in esenta, vipassana si yoga asta fac… ma invata “cum sa…” cele de mai sus, la modul practic si aplicabil in viata de zi cu zi. am pus cate un asterisc (*) mai sus in text la cele pasaje despre care vorbesc. la ele ma refer cand spun… cum sa fac astea… in acest moment si in acelasi timp sa aiba efect in viata mea.
acum scriu despre cum ca as scrie… cam la faza asta sunt :)… adica sunt mai mult in interior, iar cuvintele le nasc… greu :).
povestea fertilitatii mele (1)
aceasta poveste a inceput demult… cel putin de cand mama era in pantecul bunicii mele… chiar si mai demult… pe cand eram praf de stele :).
un prieten drag imi spunea insa sa fiu specifica, asa ca am sa ma rezum la cum arata bucata din poveste asta in acest moment al vietii mele…
in vara lui 2015 am inceput sa ma simt pe mine… altfel, mai intens, mai profund, mai ales la momentul menstruatiei.
in ultimele cateva mentruatii simt ca al meu corp se conecteaza cu toata energia feminina a Universului. simt ca vine prin mine ceva mare… adanc, de demult… din strabunele noastre…. din trib.
ma simt canal si conectata cu toate femile din lume, cu toate mamele, cu cortul rosu.
am trecut dincolo de durere de cand am invatat vipassana – ceea ce simt la mentruatie este vibratia pura si fina a fiecarei celule a corpului meu. inclusiv la propriu… corpul meu arde in acele momente / zile (confirmat inclusiv de cei care trec pe langa mine sau ma ating). este foarte intens… foarte in interior, iar pentru a putea contine toata trairea asta am nevoie sa stau intinsa in pozitie fetala… iar daca cineva drag ma tine in brate de la spate, sa imi incalzeasca lombara, e minunat.
in acele momente ma simt goddess cu adevarat… puternica, vulnerabila, capabila, fertila, femeie, senzuala, mama in devenire, conectata, divina, sacra…
tot anul trecut, prin iunie cred, am simtit pentru prima data in viata ca exista in mine gandul ca pot fi mama in viata asta, ca pot primi un bebe care sa vina prin mine, pe care sa il primesc (deocamdata simt ca e un el.. dar asta nu e relevant acum) cu iubire si bratele deschise, pe care sa il nasc natural (despre nasterea pe care mi-o doresc in alt post), intr-un loc in natura sau in cuibul meu inconjurata de persoane dragi si speciale.
m-a surprins si pe mine gandul asta. pana in acel moment eram convinsa ca eu nu o sa nasc copii in viata asta – tocmai ma separasem dintr-o relatie de 15 ani, in acea relatie nu simteam ca este un loc in care sa primim un copil, nu ma simteam in siguranta, vazuta, acceptata si iubita asa cum sunt (despre asta in alt post, nu judec pe nimeni aici!).
in perioada in care am inceput sa am trairile respective la mentruatie am inceput de asemenea sa simt o prezenta imprejurul meu.
venea cand eram alaturi de partenerul meu, venea uneori si ma trezea in somn, noaptea. pur is simplu venea, vine… si intra in spatiu meu. la inceput eram speriata – m-am simtit violata in intimitatea mea, nu puteam alege daca sa accept sau nu, alteori mintea imi spunea ca sunt posedata… insa nu e nici una din acestea…
simt prezenta asta cu iubire in ultima vreme, cu blandete… in ultima vreme e cu mine din ce in ce mai des si perioade mai lungi.
alteori, cand eram in intimitate cu partenerul meu simteam prezenta atat de pregnant de parca era inca o persoana cu noi in spatiul fizic. efectiv parca il puteam atinge – atat de concreta era vibratia sa. partenerul meu spunea ca este spiritul spirutului ( sa ne referim la el cu M) copilului sau nenascut. stiam amandoi ce simtim si ca il simtim amandoi.
acum in ultima perioada nu mai e parca atat de intens… insa o prezenta este cu mine. nu stiu daca este M… insa e cu mine… in mine, din ce in ce mai des si perioade din ce in ce mai lungi.
il simt in corp: de obicei intra prin pantec si imi umple intreg trunchiul si bratele. in picioare nu il simt… sau poate nu am fost atenta, constienta.
imi simt pantecul foarte activ, plin de viata… la un moment dat am crezut ca sunt deja insarcinata – e ceva nou pentru mine.
in primele luni venea cand eram in intimitate cu partenerul meu sau dimineata cand ma trezeam, insa in ultima perioada e aleatoriu: vine si noaptea, ziua brusc, cand merg pe strada…nu exista momente anume.
recent mi-am dat seama de acceptarea asta… a acestei / acestor prezente… de constientizarea starilor mele. mi-am dat seama ca imi DORESC sa primesc un bebe in viata mea! imi doresc cu adevarat.
este ceva ce nu vreau sa rationez – ce este, cine este, nu vreau sa resping sau atrag prezenta sa. vreau sa fiu… cu ea… cu el… sa las, sa ascult, sa simt, sa constientizez. sa las sa curga ce vine, sa nu controlez.
stiu deja ca voi fi mama, ca SUNT mama…
fricile legate de faptul ca nu voi fi o mama buna (plecate de la “vezi pe mama mea”, “vezi varsta, nu mai ai rabdare” sau de faptul ca nu am copii si nu stiu cum sa ma comport cu un copil) au fost spulberate de cativa ani de cand am “lucrat” cu copiii.
na, nu stiu daca ce am scris este despre fertilitatea… si nu e musai sa ii dau un nume corect samantic :).
am multe sa scriu… vorbele si cuvintele sunt la mine destul de rar. exist mai mult in interior – emotii, sentimente, linisti, experiente pe care nu le pot transpune in cuvinte.
totodata simt si stiu ca scrisul pentru mine e… eliberator 🙂
asa ca, I’ll be back! 🙂
dad is pregnant too
In everything, fathers, you are an equal and essential participant if you will claim it. […]
Your baby has specifically chosen you as her father because she wishes your participation in her life. […]
Father is an essential participation of preconception to birth and beyond. His love is the current that opens mother’s heart to birth their baby at this vibration. He is invited by his baby to offer his energetic alignment of love to baby’s life. […]
Fathers are usually the masculine energy that ground the feminine energy for the couple, allowing mom to open to the baby’s soul. Mother is like a balloon, newly soaring in the heavens and needing father to be her anchor or tether. […] She needs the strength that father’s grounding and stability offers. Without a dad around, a mom must be physically more dense, more masculine and does not open to her spiritual nature as easily, nor allow the baby as deeply into her inner space.
Dad has the ideal opportunity and time to develop his protective warrior stance during pregnancy. Not the slaying warrior of the past, but a warrior who protects with his shield of love. His love surrounds and balances the emotional upheavals that pregnancy can bring.
Sunni Karll – Sacred Birthing, Birthing a New Humanity – Chapter 3 – Pursuing Wholeness For Each Newborn
let your soul be your pilot
great reminder, Sting <3
Lyrics:
Let your soul, be your pilot
Let your soul, guide you
He’ll guide you wellWhen you’re down and they’re counting
When your secrets, all found out
When your troubles, take to mounting
When the map you have, leads you to doubt
When there’s no Information and the compass turns
To nowhere that you know wellLet your soul, be your pilot
Let your soul, guide you
He’ll guide you wellWhen the doctor failed to heal you
When no medicine chest, can make you well
When no counsel, leads to comfort
When there are no more lies, they can tell
No more useless information and the compass spins
The compass spins between Heaven and HellLet your soul, be your pilot
Let your soul, guide you
He’ll guide you wellAn’ your eyes turn towards the window pane
Lights upon the hill
The distance seems so strange to you now
The dark room seems so stillLet your pain, be my sorrow
Let your tears, be my tears too
Let your courage, be my model
That the north you’ll find, will be true
When there’s no information
And the compass turns to nowhere
To nowhere, that you know wellLet your soul, be your pilot
Let your soul, guide you
Let your soul, guide you
Let your soul guide you, upon your way
Let your soul, guide you
Let your soul, guide you
Let your soul, guide you
Let your soul, guide youWhen the doctor failed to heal you
Only so many lies they can tell
No more useless information
Just your soul to guide you
Let your soul guide you
Let your soul guide you
Let your soul guide you
Let your soul guide youLet your pain, be my sorrow
Let your tears, be my tears too
Let your courage, be my model
That the north you’ll find
That the north you’ll find, will be true
Let your soulto life – a natural birth in nature
WARNING: This video is explicit, especially as it is shot outdoors in broad daylight. If you choose to watch it, please watch it with respect and understand that it is very exposing for Simone to share herself in this way.
Simone, grateful for your being… and for sharing this with the world…
“To Life. I surrender myself in complete trust and you gave me back to myself. I am your servant forever in love and devotion.”
Simone
<3
love and profound reverence to all godmothers of this world
Where are you? – Today I rise!
to all the girls and women in the world <3
https://vimeo.com/122762336
for when I forget about myself
I am going to start posting here reflections for those moments when I forget about myself… when I feel lost… unworthy, not enough, not good and everything in this register.
in those moments I will come back here… and breath in… and come back to ground 0… 🙂
there’s going to be the find myself again category for all those posts, for fast access 😀
reinventing organizations
“there’s something broken with the way we run organizations today.”
This is how Frederic Laloux starts this talk on Reinventing Organizations.
these were the reasons I left organizations. too much control from the top management, plans with no meaningful purpose, managers not walking the talk etc, no inspiring or empowering leaders, people loosing their light on the way, no passion from management.
in the beginning of 2015 I’ve decided I will not work in business organizations again, at least in the type of ones I worked in or the types I worked with or heard of, that includes all multinationals I know around in Romania.
Laloux has been doing a three year study which reveals some of the aspects I’m trying to implement in all my… so called work / career.. which is so part of my life :).
He says that the new emerging organizational management paradigm which seams to work and have tremendous results (also in numbers!) implement the following elements:
- self-management: in which, for example, decision making processes are not hierarchical nor consensus but implemented as an advice process, where everyone in the organization can make a decision based on consulting with a more experience person in the areas of decision and also with someone who will be directly affected by that decision.
- wholeness: which main focus is to create a safe space for people to work in and includes practices like feedback & evaluations, storytelling, compensations & incentives, on-boarding, office-space, conflict resolutions, recruitment, dismissal.
- evolutionary purpose: leaders are listening to where the organization wants naturally called to go and facilitate that way.
most of the organizations included in his research have no budgets, no targets, no sales targets. 🙂 sounds crazy for some, eh? 🙂
here is the entire talk:
I dedicate this talk with reverence and deep appreciation for all the experiences we’ve shared together with Calin E, Dumitru R, Dragos P and Calin F, along the way.
these experiences had brought me to where I am today – doing what I love, involving in projects I feel passionate about, meeting people with similar interests and meaningful purposes. 🙂 <3
a goddess
today I was gifted the privileged of witnessing a birth… in pictures.
the images offered me glimpses of a natural birth, at home. there was the MOTHER, her partner, the doula, the photographer and of course… the little angel they were all welcoming.
I felt the mother so in tune with HERself in those moments. Natural, confident in HER experience, spacious in the unfolding experience.
I felt him supportive, being there next to HER, holding HER, touching HER, massaging HER…I felt the doula so supportive of the space, of the moments. I felt her being there with ferm and at the same time minimum interference. She left space for the mother to be with herself in the experience, she left them being together in their togetherness. I felt her helping the process with her skills (massaging HER back, holding HER belly, washing the baby as she was doing that her whole life) and loving presence (covering baby’s head after the birth, putting a napkin under the mother after birth).
This was the closed I’ve been to a natural home birth.
SHE was a goddess and I was gifted to witness some of those moments.
I feel reverence, love and appreciation for at least the five persons directly participating in the experience.
<3to the sacredness
to the goddess in me and HERto the doulas
to the fathers
to the fairies
to the angels
I bowand wish for myself and all the women in the world… that when the time comes to welcome a child into this world… in our nest-temples, we will also say “I am a GODDESS, thank you for witnessing”.
<3
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the picture of this post is from the The Birth Project Paintings of Amanda Greavette Fine Art
here are some videos of births… <3
a being of sound
I was just listening this with Ronen and with Annelieke in my heart.
I felt he is creating a being of sound… touching beyond that attic. he let it out in this Universe.
what I am feeling out of- toghether with it is… unfolding wholeness, firesc, expression, presence, authenticity, joy, passion, togetherness, emotional touch.
allow yourself at least the 18 minutes with it (with quality speakers or headphones).
<3
in-joy